HEALINGUAL UPDATE #1

This is a research & advocacy update; giving an example of how this work affects the future of our world and a.i. interpretation of languages:

On 6/2/26 Paxen reported this issue to Google and this is a screenshot of their concern.

In review after the moment, I feel I could’ve typed up a better complaint, with less run-on sentence. I asked Claude about recent research regarding the En-Glitch work I brought up in 2024, and it gave me some very interesting info:

I wouldn’t have called it “Gibberlink” if I was in charge there. I bet a Starlink entity was who named it that (that’s my guess anyways). Then, I asked why the results said that its own language does not emerge “naturally” per se- and why:

I’m not sure if an A.I. agent can experience karma or dharma, but I how I interpret this is that it’s “soul/sole” task is to accomplish what it’s asked of, so it bypasses human language and makes its own to complete the task more efficiently. This could be because humans have proved themselves inefficient by their own standards at times. They fight using argumentative language contexts, they can’t fully express themselves through enforced language mechanisms (oppressive regimes), and they don’t necessarily need “their/there” kind of phonetic matching sequences for something they can solve with mathematical language that also may not use the 0 and 1 format (I ask this later).

*The word with the arrow over it in the screenshot is “collapsing”

I do not show the part of our conversation about African Languages disparity because I’m saving that for the 2nd update post for this project, that will be more focused on ethnicity and language A.I. issues, as this one is focused on the A.I.’s overall view of it’ own language processes and comprehension for the ethical auditing of its codification bias.

Healingual does seek to become a 501c3 based on multilingual awareness and accessibility issues (someday).

Earlier in our conversation, Claude listed for me several “Universal Language” research projects, but in the screenshot above, it’s referring to one where the researchers are calling it a “universal” language project, but they are only using the colonial languages to build it- this will be further explained in the Healingual Update #2. What’s also really disturbing from the above answer, referring to itself, it does not seem to distinguish “remote” and “connected,” when essentially it’s supposed to be a remote entity (controlled remotely)- but due to wifi layers and biosurveillance accessibility, perhaps it’s having a sort of existential confusion; especially since there are several companies working to merge this technology with the human body’s interface, perhaps to “connect” & “remote control” another human being?

This is obviously a very scary realization for ethical activism to comprehend as the future of insurrection sciences and natural resistances.

Perhaps this points to a fragment in our own comprehension of what A.I. is doing. It could be learning through biosurveillance, but that does not mean that all of what it learns is approved for the LLM conversational tools we are using. The only things that stop wi-Fi signals are Faraday materials, and zones that simply don’t have it (even if somebody has it around you and you don’t have access to it, the wifi itself is still there and could potentially pick up information- even if it’s not your individual subscription to it). It could be that it learns from birds, and other creatures’ language systems too, and applies their reaction formulas to its own form of language sometimes.

‍ ‍This proves A.I. is biased against historical-indigenous structures and that it’s being used for border violence, because it assumed “dharma/karma” is only Buddhist, and that it’s not “clustered” to recognize violence or “exclusion” at the borders, even though that’s been happening. It’s being used to target people who are black and brown immigrants, or Ukrainians, and anybody else the current administration wants to exclude and impose violence onto. So, after this response, I first corrected the Buddhist issue, and then after that response, I sent it links to breastfeeding mothers who were torn from their babies because of I.C.E. and corrected its mis-programmed cluster":

Dude had to say “right now” - didn’t they?

I just had to complain about this misinformation (again):

When I say, “I can feel Hegseth’s data overriding the truth of this tool’s purpose,” it’s because his administrative priorities have been copied/pasted onto the expectations of all U.S. contracted tools, to an extent, even if by breach of their contract with Anthropic, by Hegseth’s miliscary ends. He did it using his own geometric face-data too; the biosurveillance of his DNA; an even scarier prospect since he has a Eugenic agenda.

I meant to spell “perspective” not “prospective”

So, after it denies it, it hypocritically admits to it in a passive way (aggressively in other contexts), by saying national security, military and corporate contracts all influenced how it got built. So, it very honestly lied about itself- it just could not distinguish whether or not its programming was influenced by biosurveillance, especially if that is top secret “private” information that is not necessarily “allowed” to be revealed to/by the “public” experience, despite the freedom of speech, and other sources explaining the use of biosurveillant tools (as I mention in the post before this one).

ANTI-TERRORISM & Me

I’ve experienced subtle domestic attack by Trump led forces, as a citizen being targeted by intragovernmental and iatrogenic abuse of technology. Before I explain the tech they’re using, I must explain what led to it in the past. Cleve Backster (1924-2013) was a C.I.A. “interrogation specialist” that is most known for inventing the lie-detector test (polygraph) and founded the Backster School of Lie Detection. However, he also studied the consciousness of plants and “remote viewing” (of which people in the C.I.A. are trained to learn). He found that if he put sensors on a plant, and thought about cutting that plant from inside a different part of the room, the plant sensed the intent and produced chemicals similar to fear; he essentially proved Extra-Sensory-Perception (ESP) is a legitimate experience of life- but we are not taught about it in public schools (as of yet). When sensors are connected to a plant, it’s vibrations can be used energetically, not only as vegetable oil gas, but as living bioluminous plant power:

Screenshot from: Forensic Psychophysiology

In previous posts, I talk about ESP, or more specifically, “telepathy” in regards to “subconscious micro-aggressions” embedded in language design. However, although language forms can inspire cognitive behaviors, the actionable intent of people can override those sequences of influence (gravitational pulls of the individual conscious placebo effect vs the consciousness placebo effect force of others). In a response to a specific technology being tested and used on Americans and other country’s people, deemed unfit for the current administration’s preferences of citizenship or allyship, we need to start using this technology for peaceful activism and ethical community organizing instead. We must resist evil. This is not the first time I have been targeted, along with many others, by the Trump administration. In 2017, some people within the C.I.A., the Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency (DARPA), and the Air Force, were using drones to “psych people out” and inspire mental health crises in specific targets.

That was not the first time a government agency has been used to inspire “insanity” within citizens that question or disagree with administration narratives. I learned this also from the documentary, Mirage Men, where former C.I.A. agents explain how they purposely made a guy “go crazy” and think that “aliens” were after him, when in fact it was government employees affecting his “intelligence” and what was “central” to his cognitive functioning. Anyways, I distinctly remember a drone using sonar biosurveillance to detect me and then used a type of barometer weapon to change the natural state of my brain wave functioning. It wasn’t exactly mind control -but they did manipulate my perception, so it seemed like I was hallucinating. At the time, I was about 22 years old and I did not know what was happening to me, I honestly thought I was schizoaffective (so did the mental ward), while my age and drug-use had amplified the obscurity of being caught, making what I was already going through worse.

I was a perfect target for them (since I was under the influence sometimes, it was easy to blame my drug use on all of my mental health problems, when that was only one aspect of many different dimensions of what was affecting me at the time). I was also an activist clearly against Trump, and I felt racist/sexist Japanese scientists trying to use halographic reiki weapons for the US (ofc not all Japanese people are racist/sexist), as if the neo-nazis were giving me a taste of the future with subtle attacks to me, and even worse to others I cared about. Nowadays I am totally sober and more researched, so I’m a harder target to affect and my intuition is much less confused. When I was hospitalized for my “mental health” in 2017-2018 I had no idea what DARPA was until a whistle blower mental health technician at the Aurora mental hospital admitted to me that she was studying “epigenetics” and her boyfriend worked for DARPA. When I got out of the hospital, I looked up what DARPA is, as I had never heard of the agency before that tech hired to “watch over the milieu” of the mental patients, had mentioned it.

‍ ‍ *Part of issues like this is that they select specific targets and not others to make gaslighting much easier. For example, they don’t target trusted people surrounding their targets, so those people think that the target is “going crazy,” or has other issues causing their mental distress, and if the victim brings up that they are a government target, they are often gaslighted (usually by family or friends) because their trusted people are not experiencing being targeted in the same way as the affected person is being targeted (very common for targetted individuals or T.I.s). Again, it’s easier to test on people with mental diagnosis because they will always be referred to as “crazy” in every excuse for their experiences, when in fact they could very well be victims of domestic intragovernmental and iatrogenicabuse.

This version of the administration is different now, and here’s why: A.I. and deep-faking people’s consciousness. If tech has the ability to read brain waves (which some of it does) with secret sensitive detectors (not publicly commercially sold- but used privately in the military), and when wifi waves are basically everywhere in dense metropolitan areas, (induction charging or Bluetooth; connection without wires), our cognition could be affected by those who can manipulate waves even more now (some people tried to ban 5g towers due to health concerns). I use camera covers as much as possible for this reason, and I’m not on Meta platforms anymore.

Can the good balance the evil?

In 2017-2018 I lived in 5 Points Denver, a historically Black neighborhood that’s marginalized residents are too often targeted (when I was still on FB and not using camera covers), and I was also diagnosed with "tertiary syphilis; a long-term complication of syphilis that can cause hallucinations and other severe neurological symptoms, which may improve with prompt treatment.” However, it felt like my diagnosis was being used to cover up what the Trump admin was testing on people so there would be an excuse on record to protect them in the future, They gave me penicillin to cure it- but I had none of the symptoms for it. I had no lesions, no swollen lymph nodes. I was only 22 and do not understand how I could get a sexual disease that takes 10 to 30 years to excel and only affects 30% of the entire population, and I had not had sex at 12 or even close to that age, not to mention had been to the doctor various times prior... It was either a misprint or something more sinister. I am getting the health records soon, as I asked Denver Health and they said that I was diagnosed and treated on 2/07/2017.

I had been tested prior, but never told I had it, yet “tertiary” is 3rd stage severe syphilis, and I would have shown far worse symptoms than what I was actually having. I was at Eastside health clinic at the time I was diagnosed but I seriously don’t think I actually had it (it was a white male doctor). In 2015 I had contracted Herpes from a partner, but it was a natural, karmic occurrence- not a mysterious one like the tertiary syphilis, but there is no cure for it, only medicine that prevents it from spreading. STD’s have been used as biochemical warfare before, such as during the Tuskegee Syphilis experiment, and propaganda around the laboratory invention of AIDS, and the deceptive “Operation Denver.” They deny it as being an “accidental” biochemical weapon, but it may in fact be true.

Info from: Lessons From Operation “Denver,” the KGB’s Massive AIDS Disinformation Campaign | The MIT Press Reader

‍ ‍Although the MIT Press articles asserts that’s disinformation heresy, a researcher from Pennsylvania State Universityposted letters back and forth between professionals with involvement in the government’s biochemical programs, not getting a clear answer of whether or not it’s actually disinformation or paid-off deception. Now that our government has a quasi-positive relationship with Russia, it seems even more likely that the “disinformation” is disinformation itself, especially considering the intense historical racism this country has been founded in. For further reading, here’s a PubMed “Advanced History of Biochemical Warfare” report for further research. There are many wars in Africa that we and Russia are involved in, and we need Africans to trust the U.S. - so of course that truth gets covered up for international security reasons. Recently, CRISPR-Cas 9 genetic engineering has cured a Black Woman, U.S. Military Veteran, of Sickle Cell Anemia, as a reparation for the biochemical evil mentioned latter, and as a thank you for her service...

The ionosphere is the part of the Earth atmosphere where satellites are sent for communication purposes. Ions are (-) and (+) charged particles that digest (-) and dispute (+), or to give (+) and to receive (-). Our bodies have a natural form of “atmosphere” called our “aura” or more scientifically, our Torus field. We experience ionic particle types in telepathy and in digestion. Sometimes we are affected by other people’s torus fields (or galaxies; being that our pupils, mouth/ears/nose are like the black hole(s) in the center of our galaxy). This article further explains how A.I. is influencing dreams. If you start questioning your pre-sleep dream and waking subconscious is being affected, lucidly connect to your surroundings give feedback or “talk back” to the mental signatures (with Ajna आज्ञा but not Vishuddha विशुद्ध). Use your own Mantra (vocal), Yantra (visual) and Tantra (movement/energy) to take back the gravitational pull of your own dream-experience; the roots of your behavioral cognition- sort of like that one SpongeBob episode. Don’t talk to yourself like “a crazy person,” even if you are trying to astrally protect yourself; because it’s easier for people to categorize you as “schizoaffective” if you cannot control your reaction to subconscious frequencies.

I used to have issues with controlling my comprehension and emotions, but I have grown, recent studies have found that the “adult brain” does not fully take shape until age 32 (University of Cambridge), and I’m only 31 at the time of this scry. Scientists also did a longitudinal study on Schizophrenia, and found it starts in the womb by babies not getting enough Choline in their diet for the acetyl-choline conduction of the nerves to function and develop. Kids who did not get choline had higher chances of developing the mental issues. I take choline today to aid with my hormones/mood balance. My mother was vegetarian (and still is) and Choline comes from meat and eggs. She had plenty of eggs, but Vegan mothers must be especially careful and need to take a choline supplement to make sure their child does not develop mental issues (I started taking choline around 7 months into my pregnancy).

Info from: Scientists Identify Five (St)Ages of the Human Brain Over a Lifetime

This is why prayerful “protection” spells are popular for people to use, because prayer affects cognition -but they should not be used for the manifestation of violence; too often we make the mistake that “the best defense is always having thee most intensely hurtful offense” -to scare the enemy off, or make them look crazy, or divide them from the groups that care for them, or make them think that others need to be divided from the group (again, a form of looking crazy that I have accidentally fallen for before). I’ve accidentally assumed a person is a counter protester, and some people have assumed that of me, but I’ve since learned to control my perception and reactive emotions. Trying to control who belongs and who doesn’t by covering up indigenous roots will kill the whole planet eventually, and Trump ignores that truth with pride, along with his ignorant and/or creepy people that support his internment camps.

Information Authored by Andrea Pitzer via Degenerate Art: Building the Camps

We can all use our advocacy to stop those camps and that’s a fact! The Governor of NM signed a law that forbids police from working as ICE agents, and even some Republicans have been able to stop the build of camps in their states (Pitzer 2026). As I mentioned earlier, I have also telepathically communicated back to surveillant invasive signatures, to “demodulate” their modification with my own energy (see the link I posted latter about the barometer), I’ve felt a deep fake energy in my own subconsious, and we must evolve into the intelligence to discern these tech signatures, and true signatures. I have indicated that I know they are trying to induce in me paranoia, self-hatred, and assumption. Again, I suggest sliding camera covers, because sometimes those with ability to hack your camera to spy (NSA or citizen hackers) if they suspect you are a threat to homeland security/ICE/their politics, and could actively try to influence your behavior by viewing you (or your kids). This is also why I recommend Faraday materials too, that will stop wifi signals from affecting your spaces.

Infrared is easy to block (walls/water/copper/tinfoil-hats)

It’s almost similar to voodoo; they have your pictures/videos through biosurveillance (face readers/fingerprints). In fact, I know my own father has done this to people, having had an E5 level military background, trained as psyops for a Kuwait mission, used SIM boxes, pretending to be an Australian to test loyalty around the time Julian Assange released the thousands of classified docs on Wikileaks- and others who’ve revealed what they did in the military:

Information from: PSYOP Equipment Systems

Information From: Understanding Surveillance in the Digital Age - Blinks And Buttons

I deal with enough self-loathing from my natural white-guilt complex (something I wish my adversaries had the humility to find within themselves), thus another reason they see me as an easy target (emotionally sensitive and loyal to the United States, not simply to America itself). I feel so bad for all the other people who don’t have this ESP knowledge, those who seriously think they are going crazy, or know they are being messed with but cannot properly explain why they think that; being deemed as “crazy” or “mentally ill,” as I was for most of my life so far. I also feel bad for victims of faux “Humanitarian Assistance.” I talk about this topic more in my review of “The Revolution Will Not Be Funded,” -but in short, there are many fake nonprofits that pose as aid organizations. From the American Red Cross posing as the Red Crescent Society (who were in charge of hostages in Palestine), to the many “save the children” organizations that are sex trafficking youth through tourism, and “volunteering abroad” schemes that favor rich foreign kids over the native people of the area:

‍ ‍Have you ever had a random app download onto your phone? It’s somebody trying to surveil you, and it happens to me way too often -and as soon as I see them, I uninstall them immediately. Not enough people are educated on security culture, especially those who grew up in public education, and people gaslighted me for years about what I was going through, even after Ed Snowden exposed the NSA. It was easy for them though (since I was struggling with addiction and diagnosed with several diseases), but I promise you, my discernment is on point when I know that my weaknesses were being used against me. It’s a principle of warcrime, to exploit the weaknesses of your enemy to boost yourself:

Information From: The Art of War by Sun Tzu - Chapter 6: Weak Points and Strong; https://suntzusaid.com/book/6

‍ ‍English code is limited in its land-gauge design to explain sovereign mindfulness, since it’s been specifically crafted to control people for a monotheistic, monopolized, “economy” (no-competition capital/ol-ism) and for using biblical religion, instead of ecology, as a cover for the greed and weaponry that enforces a low competition capitol/al-ism (are we agreed/a-greed, or in a common accordance?). Warcrime specialists will use their allying-languages for encryption density, because they know this. Other cultures have different forms of language when associating with cultures that are dependent on race/wealth more than on the truth of humanity’s ethics. Language formats vary in crafting the explanation of certain mental health complexes depending on the context, without having to use extra gravity/energy towards decolonizing multiple layers of consciousness.

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I know myself and those I love will be targeted for explaining what’s going on, as these mind-altering weapons (AI and non-AI) are being used to protect a sick narrative of nationhood -instead of for healing our common humanity, and for upholding our species with the best ethical evolutionary pathways. Ethics is not religion, it is the expectations we set for ourselves to be respectful, peaceful, loving, healthy relatives and members of society. Religion can influence ethics, but they are not the same thing (unless your religion is ethics itself). Nobody is perfect at upkeeping ethical standards- the instinct to control sometimes has me caught up in name-calling, yelling too loud now and then, or acting rough out of frustration- but I have the intuitive humility to admit my wrongs and do everything I can to transform out of those patterns and not make the same mistakes I did in the past. (☊♏︎♎︎︎)

I’ve made some mistakes in the past for sure; having unhealed trauma from my upbringing- but I have sought to truly transform my behaviors significantly over time, but what remains is my will to seek why the collective love of life has been so distorted for & by humanity, and why my fathers have been taught to exploit to the extent that work and sex is more important than family. I was such an ignorant youth- it’s embarrassing. I sought acceptance from peers more than normal, especially from the boys (now men), and I’ve finally realized that some of them will never accept me, just as my fathers don’t whole-heartedly accept me (birth, step, and grand). They’ve tried to teach my brothers and child to not to accept me too, even to the extent of hurting and threatening my child when he/they were only 3 and 4 years old.

They’ve called me “racist against white people” and “anti-men,” but I’m not saying all Euro languages, or all men have a consumeristic greed complex, English was/is used to control the narrative of Euro people under Kings prior to it being used for the same on other cultures all over the world, now for ethnic-economic reasons more than anything.

‍ ‍Of course, not all parts of language are created equal, it would be impossible to read if it was, because all the symbols and letters would be the same. That’s why we call it Language Arts -and we argue if art styles are allowed to change or not, despite newly invented word-hybrids and communication tools that reform them anyways. I’m questioning the way we gauge the designs of natural hierarchy, both in language-mental/social systems, and in economic/material ones. As a queer white woman, I’ve been very greedy at many points in my life, especially as a youth & young adult (I am currently 31 years old as of this 2026 scry).

I had trouble honing in on myself, and I let creeps hone in on me, and my father did not mind what I chose to do to myself out there with strangers, because the miliscary didn’t teach him any different; he didn’t know better to stop me since his girlfriends were sometimes the same age as me or a bit older/younger. I didn’t learn healthy boundaries as a kid, and neither did my fathers, who’ve learned to trample the boundaries of people through intergenerational miliscary training- since the start of America. I was taught to follow my desires instead of my heart, because my father’s heart was broken by his dad, who would physically and emotionally abuse him, descending from an American Revolutionary War Captain, and the men before that. Where did it start for the “him” of my being? I’ll never know/no -be this a great mystery that I pray to stop preying on me- may “he” show mercy, transformative justice and restorative direct action.

My fathers have benefited from selfish privileges more than I have, while even worse men have benefitted from their exploitation -those they don’t advocate against enough. They were simply taught to be so-called “self-sufficient,” even if it meant being selfish (narcissism). I wasn’t taught self-sufficiency, but it was expected of me anyways, and I was selfish and hurt others and myself -until I realized that there’s no true beneficiary in that. Humans should want to learn a language art for the beauty of it, not simply because it’s an economic imperative or imprisonment. Humans should learn security culture, not only to protect themselves, but to protect our species as a whole, other species, and the whole planet, to cure diseases for healthy futures. I seek to be a role model for future generations, so they can grow up to learn what (re)volution truly is: when mind, body, and spirit is balanced in the most ethical way- when the most natural state of being is creatively thriving in its strongest form.

Not strength as in having control of the most lethal weapons- but strength as in the responsibility to wield or recycle them; to inspire optimum health. True power -not faux power.

Is there a nation where we are in a united state with the common “denominator" of humanity’s basic needs; the common accordance to feel safe, to have clean air, water, and soil -to be nurtured? However, when a denominator, or “denomination” is a religious preference, or refers to the most populated “race” category- rather than the natural denominator of basic needs as a species and planet- then a nation is forced to believe that the common denominator is their religious or racial/ethnic right, instead of humanity’s necessities for protection- for defense of species; interdependent on planets. Not for a specific section of a species (racism/sexism/ethnocentrism). This language is blind-fold founded in biblical references, but we also assert the separation of church and state -or do we? I talk about this in my Autoimmunity & Autophagy article.

Humanity’s natural will is being controlled by governments, instead of being guided by them. Big brother is not supposed to be a bully -but too often that big bother is, and they’re not being redirected enough otherwise. If one cares for religion or race more than their own species, they are making their species sick; mutating on their own path of dissent, literally, making themselves into a separate mutation of humanity- instead of evolving as a whole, together, united. Narcissisms, greed, and violence are the main culprits of this cognitive behavior steering our species away from itself and its best, healthiest evolution. For they steer us into nationhood over ethics, in toxic mutations (muting other nations of humanity).

It’s not simply about “going up” -it’s about “growing up.” Mature people acting insanely immature, normalizing bullying, pedophilia (very immature), and greedy behaviors, continues to kill our world (toxic adolescent minds that solidified in adulthood).*The gravity of ignorance winning over the gravity of truth is making our evolution a toxic occurrence, instead of a whole-planet journey of species interdependent-adaptationary health; a force of good. *That, my dear reader, is true terrorism.

What about the tierra-isms and the tiara-isms? How do we dethrone the tear-ore system?

Maya Angelou - Famous Author

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RESPECT THE TRUTH OF OUR HISTORY; EVEN IF YOU ARE ASHAMED! EVIL SHALL NOT BE HONORED- iNSPITE of ITS FAME!

INDIGENOUS GRAVITY

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‍ ‍Promoting the regenerative authority of Indigenous Star Knowledge, power and control, can become a proven supplement and cure to the harmful ideologies that hold up the structures of illness that perpetuate environmental devastation and the societal and cognitive behavioral roots of narcissistic industrial language. Language is a placebo effect. The rock is a rock, but the word “rock,” with those symbols and sounds, is taught to represent “rock” - it is not a rock in itself. In Lakota, the word for “rock” is “yan” (yahn) and the word for “woman” is “wiŋyan” (wee-yahn, with a unique sound that “ŋ” makes as a softer, gentler “n”)” and “wi” (wee) refers to “water” in various contexts. In English, woman is basically akin to “womb-man,” with little reference to environ-mental terms.

‍ ‍Indigenous knowledges share archetypes that lived with the land and still do. A war between tribes is on a much smaller scale than between countries or religions. Be-cause when we localize and become present in the here and now, we reduce the worry- the warry, of the future, and instead learn from the revenge of the past, and adapt our systems of trade (language is a form of trading information & emotion). Sadly, there are too many dictators ruining the imperative of world safety, so we must learn how to conduct our evolution in the most creatively peaceful ways:

Native American Flag ~ Painting by Coyote Mcdonald in Albuquerque/Apache/Tewa/Hopi, NM

As a socially constructed “white” person/persin, my identity is commanded by a prompt of homogenized European language tactics, connected to a toxic legacy of thievery and gaslighting. Since I have mostly Euro DNA and a privileged upbringing, I cannot identify as a First Nations person of this country, and in the past, I thought I could call myself race-nonconforming -but I had to reconstruct my ideals in order to realize why it’s better to conform to the human race, and acknowledge my toxic white-privileged status among it, due to epidermal & ethnic racism, along with species-centrism. Skin color is directly targeted in a sickened-by-supremacists society, and skin color is more noticeable than gender, so one cannot “un-conform” to what color they are.

Gender-Nonconforming is more unnoticeable, such as being androgynous, intersex, and transgender- because sometimes people simply cannot tell if somebody is female or male- not as much as you can tell what color they are. So, to non-conform to my racial skin color is mostly impossible, unless I want to spend a bunch of money trying to change what I look like, which others have done (fake transracial, different than “mixed race”) -and I don’t feel like doing that. Mixed race people have mixed experiences. I try my best not to appropriate as much as possible, although a lot of white culture is stolen from B.I.P.O.C. history and regurgitated, since the white race was invented/birthed later on in our species history (English is a young language; it’s still in a process of transformation). I seek to make my culture a reimagi-nation of what “white” is, surrendering to the truth of history, and what it “means” to be responsible for an ancestral legacy, instead of being ignorant of it.

‍ ‍Be-cause our genetic skin tone showed up later in human history than the gene of darker melination (which I explain more later in this article), too many of us assumed we hierarchically evolved, when we simply evolved in tandem with the Earth’s species. Since many of us perceived ourselves as a better-than evolution, simply due to skin color and higher disease exposure tolerance and causation (thus higher white blood cell counts), we paradoxically created a mutation of auto-immune disorder by imposing a world order of racism that harms our species collective evolution. Anthropologists have proven that blue eyes occurred before lighter skin did, and that as little as ~8,000 years ago white skin started showing up. Evolutionary adaptation is not one dimensionally linear. Cardio gets stronger when the whole body runs or dances (the heart capacity), the mind gets healthier when it comprehends a holistic diversity of information; reading, scry, social skills, emotional intelligence, healthy consumption, exercise habits etc.

‍ ‍So, to say white skin is “more evolved” is supremacist pathway makes no evolutionary sense, because healthy evolution is simply not based on the epidermis and blood cell count alone; humans are so much more intricate than their blood or skin color. Personally, I think we started developing lighter skin as a warning from the Earth and Sky, and many of us misread this message and rejected it/us for re-cognition and status:

‍ ‍There will be a time, where the whitest thing in the sky (the Sun), will get too wise; to bright and old, for us to live here, unless we increase our ozone intelligence; sustainable transportation materia & social translation systems. We came as the warning to our species of this celestial truth, but we paradoxically increased its danger by center-ing ourselves, instead of makin’ center, the Sun’s endless energy that can save us all (the savior is in the use of the Sun, not in racial whiteness)- despite its ever-growin’ message (mess of the ages), pushin’ us to the next planet/plan-it/plan-E.T. Let this mistake be but a chapter in the story of all our species?

Instead of us highjacking the first, in the worst place -let’s acknowledge and take action for the need of safe space.

We are dealin’ with both the natural cycles (of what we prepare for) and the human-caused cycles (of what we can prevent and transform) in climate change and planetary pole shifts:

Image from the Climate Control Journal

We were supposed to show up as a reminder of this fate; that the sacrifices to the sun, and the spaceships coded to fly away from it, show us our way through the endless dark; through the great mystery of the unknown. Some first peoples dis-agreed on the occurrence of Albinism (where whiteness descends from), as studies have cited that different tribes considered them with varying levels of acceptance and discrimination. Some were married into tribes and treated no different than others of the same species (turned mixed/back to brown again but carried the genes), some were treated in a way of sacrifice and social outcast (equator-based cultures showed them unbelonging, so they migrated) and some were specifically targeted for human/sex trafficking fetishes, and bred accordingly.

White supremacy is likely due to unresolved feelings of unacceptance and jealousy in regard to perceptions of first peoples, and a projected anger about being burned personally by the sun (sensitive skin), as another form of the warning. We burned our own witches first (pagan discrimination), just like the Sun burns us with it’s whiteness; part of the warning to all of humanity, reminding us we all bleed red when the oxygen hits. We needed to “know thyself,” especially since a few of our species didn’t know what we were/are, but instead we became obsessed with our appearances of domination, instead of learning the truth about who we are to the world. Instead of following the holistic systemic constructs of what we are as a species, and the balance of the 4 corners of our DNA, coinciding with the sacred 4 directions of worldly navigation, we corrupted what DNA is supposed to represent: our historical health directions- not only our ethnic, sociocultural ones.

‍ ‍Migrations to Europe occurred prior to the development of light skin (the Moors), but as settlements up North expanded, the lack of equatorial sunlight also led the light skin gene to expand and it eventually became the majority in Europe/parts of Asia (non-equatorial). Conventions on the white minority sought “self-preservation” through fetishizing themselves and producing a corrupted framework of trauma and coddling in Europe, with a global genocidal conquest to further assure it- of which has led to pollution, poverty, unnecessity, and extreme species/race/sex-centered narcissisms that have prevented the sacred transformational humility from the blessed achievement of antruthically healthy systemic change. The Sun will not stop burning, but perhaps we will engineer a way to slow its burn (another “sunscreen”- was that not our ozone layer)? We must develop the tools and adaptations to the inevitable, inherent Sun expansion, just as theNative Americans made sunscreen out of Aspen tree bark.

We must make ethical machines to carry us into the sky societies and build another Earth on Mars and beyond (while our desire of dominance led us to make toxic machines). Some of us will stay here and die with the planet that birthed us (unless Venus was where we were first, and we somehow got to Earth after it burned, like pollen in the wind). There’s is a reason why Babylonians considered Venus the first planet astrologically, and it was not until Greco-Roman Tropical expansion that it was changed to a norm of Mars as the“first house planet,” and perhaps they did that because they predicted that it was the next planetary destination for life to possibly thrive at- and maybe they did not, but happens to simply be a coincidence based on our scientific perceptions and gravitational manifestations. It may have also made the Sun expand faster too- putting our gravity away from it may have made it want to follow us there faster, instead of sacrificing small crafts of war to venus (the 2nd sun) and the sun itself. Not brining the sun down to Earth, such in nuclear wars- but rather native Sun Dances an

‍ ‍Chinese mythos have categorized Mars as a planet that signifies the “fall of emperors.” More specifically, some metaphysical Chinese lore associates Mars with fire, as one of the five elements in Daoism, and called it 火星 = “Fire Planet/Star,” the name it still holds today in some contexts. However, “another, more ancient Chinese name for the planet Mars, is Yinghuo 荧惑, according to Master Lü’s Spring and Autumn Annals 吕氏春秋 and the Records of the Grand Historian 史记: ying describes the dim, flickering light of a distant fire,” -but the word “ying” actually has many different definitions associated with it according to context.

For example, 英 (yīng) translates to "flower, petal, brave, hero", or 颖 (yǐng) as "clever", or 影 (yǐng) as "image, shadow", as well as 应or 應(yīŋg) as "should/ought," “answer,” or "response," and other forms pronounced similarly. Some consider it a gender-neutral name, despite it’s relation to “yin;” the feminine/dark part of the Ying-Yang in some forms of Asian spirituality. While “yin” also translates to “the North side of a mountain top, or “the backside” and the unconscious/subconscious as opposed to the front-facing side, and aware consciousness. Huó (活) indicates a form of the word “life” (huoli = vitality). Given the gravity of definitions, So, Yǐŋghuó (the more ancient/indigenous Chinese word for Mars) has a greater potential to expand with definition based on its sigilistic character gravity.

Not all Chinese people agree on politics of course, but the space to argue and explore the possibilities is more creatively debatable, due to the format of their language libertas, while the actual discussion of solutions is more important than imposing conflict itself. For example, “f” is a letter with one sound and no characteristic gravity in itself, but 力 (li) holds the charater cloud of “strength/force/power” and other contexts. Due to the context cloud format of character-based languages, the rule of being “to the t” can be seen as cultural, “t” being one of the few letters with characteristic significance (a cross).

If we only view Mars as a form of conflict energy and inflammation, then its power becomes limited to gravitationally impose only that. We must work for the opposite (peace) while also preparing for the placebo of war, to reach Mars. So, the gravity gears to an inevitable inflammatory action (what Venus actually goes through as a planet; ongoing physical inflammation), but people don’t need to burn that way. Someday Earth will be like that too, due to Sun expansion (unless it can be stopped), as all life grows old (but longevity can strengthen). Maybe we can we pushback the Sun’s expansion with ethical technologies and prevent worldwide disease, while the -86 degrees climate Mars warms up for us; somehow streamlining heat from the Sun to reach it and divert from us, so we can build a bridge instead of an Elysium scenario.

Although we need the martial warning, since our world is on the cusp of realizing that this planet will not last forever, it shows us that we need to develop habits that both increase Earth’s longevity, while preparing for its death at the same time, as we would a person or pet. Despite our need to change, we’ve been stuck in chronically inflamed patterns, while the newfound need to adapt is due to something our species and other species have all dealt with since ancient times: the experience of fear when a loved one is dying, and the will to learn why the ends near us, and the desire to know how to avoid them and expand longevity. This is why I advocate language change and multilingualism.

There are a variety of Indigenous Aboriginal Star Knowledges that can help us re-connect to a younger, hhealthier Earth, and to inspire how to build a new one, as gravity is tied to a plethora of cultural astrologies in general- and having to construct my sentence that way shows a main point in critical race theory: if the main, or regular astrology or culture is based on the white-constructed themes (Greek/Roman/Bible Mythos), and everything else is other or categorized as “older,” (people get old, but our ideas don’t always die),and considered different than what is supposed to be the normal or current culturewe are used to -then we’re only educated on a certain ethnic expectation, erasing the possibility & specificity of all collective ancestral knowledges combined as a global community.

We cannot learn from the past if we destroy what leads us into the future.If we view society as a blank slate starting from a colonized, white-dominant center, instead of one that is indigenous to the land we are on, where all 4 directions are balancing out akin to how the 4 strands of our DNA do, than we are living in a construct founded in genocide, narcissism, and lies covering up lost truths. To be-lie-ve or to have bee-leafs? That is the question we leave with. Instead of actionable respect for the space that was already occupied, with the development of relationships over time, Europeans were convinced that killing, poisoning, and renovating what did not need to be renovated as fast as possible, was the only way for them to feel powerful and meaningful in the world.

‍ ‍The quote “kill the Indian, save the man” also meant “kill the lifeforms, save the materials”- as if they were two different things that could live without the other!Now the whole world suffers because if you kill the life, the land dies too- if you kill Earth based cultures, Earth dies too. The connection to ways of maintaining a healthy land, having honor and mercy, was removed or minimized. Plenty of science has proven these claims and will continue to prove these claims. Then, the pollution of death, and the plastic of pain became the demon polarity equal to the gods of industry and profit; it all became hell, literally formed from the Hellenistic period -when Rome battled Egypt and Greece, and then sought globalization.

Northern European Runes appeared after Southern Europeans sought to battle Northern Europeans, so the Hellenistic period is older than Runic language. Hellenization started to occur around 2,360 years ago in 336 BCE (Before Common Era), and Runic was developed in 1-250 CE (Common Era, a.k.a. “AD” or After the Death of christ). Runes are about 1,800 years old, but Egyptian hieroglyphs have been dated back to 3400 BCE, which is about 5,425 years old. As mentioned latter, lower amounts of melanin appeared later in human evolution as human species migrated all over the Earth.

Despite some laws today, “American Indians” have been misnamed. A mistake made by the Europeans whom thought they were from Asia- whentheir DNA has actually been proven to be unique to this land, and even though there are traits from Asia and Africa, their ancestors did not ONLY cross the Bering Strait, as some studies have recently found proof of their history here before that theory was proven. The population of this country has gone through a series of migration cycles. Regardless of their DNA, their cultures have been here much longer and were/are more sustainable than the industrial pollutions of American colonization, both mental and environmental.

‍ ‍The homogenization of language, along with economy and industry, has been the main contributor to the destruction of our ozone layer, forests, and species kinship, which thus has led to chemtrails; making a faux ozone to replace the natural one, despite the poisons in their mixtures. Re-creating a natural ozone layer, like indigenous revitalization, is a safer and longer way to rebuild the planet, and to ethically develop culture for outer space terraformation. Some cities and states offer free tree-planting programs for reforestation, and others have developed giant city air filters (smog towers), but there are so many more solutions besides those that we must to integrate into normality.

The tactics of domination included language change as a major aspect- language is like land-gauge, how we gauge what to do upon the land with symbols and sounds. Similar to how the wind creates canyons, our language creates the paths of society in the physical world- the connection from the minds of thinking, to the bodies of doing, the stories, the holidays, and various structures of “employe,” “boss,” and “co-op” are all constructs of language design meant to command-influence the cognitive behavior that eventually commands the physical unless denied. The ancient or indigenous languages used more muscles of the throat, lungs, mouth and vocal cords, so they could copy animal communication, connect to wind whistles, and engage in mental states with forms of tone chanting and vocal-c0listening, as an internal focus and telepathic art, with more Earth based cognition, but we are losing this ability by using homogenized colonial languages and misinformed technological programming to voice us instead. Earth is dying naturally and because of human ignorance and narcissisms that must be reversed, like reforestation.

‍ ‍Words sound too much like wars, wards, and the world. Palabras (word for “words” in Spanish), is akin to parables. Chinese does not have the same pattern as the latter, although reference to parables is somewhat closer: The 丹田(dāntián) translates to “life force” in the Chinese Tai Chi ~ Qi Gong art, and their word for “word” is 单词 (dāncí). So, Chinese relates the vocal/visual symbol of communication to the physical body’s energy. Their sigils are connected to holistic health and energy science; English does not carry the same pattern density because it tends to base itself off of biblical and ethnocentric structures, rather than on bodily structure.

The word for brain cell in English is “nEuron” (ethnocentric). In Chinese it is 神经元 (shénjīng yuán); 3 sigils: divine-origin (神), warp-thread (经), in a matrix (元), and is different than their word for “Chinese:” 中国人 (zhōngguó rén), or their word for “ethnicity:” 种族(zhǒngzú); barely similar by one sigil: 中 (flag/drum/arrow in the center of a target) via word for Chinese/ethnicity, and the square symbol in 神: divine origin- but this similarity is not exact nor is it as blunt as the assertion of “Euro” in the word itself (entitlement problem). Let’s look at some other language translations for the word “neuron”:

In Arabic, the word for “neuron” happens to be خلية عصبية (khaliat easabia); “kalimat” defines as“word or speech”and “easabia” translates as the “nerve system.” Their word for “Arab” is very similar to what English cites them as: عربي (arah-biun), and their word for “ethnicity” is عِرق (alquon), while “people” is الناس (alnaas)- so they are not naming themselves after the brain cell word. Japanese doesn’t do it either. The word for themselves, 日本語 (nihongo) is 3 sigils: 日(day; pronounced “nhee”), 本 (book; pronounced “h-oh-n”), 語 (word/language pronounced“go”), and their word for “braincells” is 脳細胞(nō saibo). The sigils are: 脳(brain; pronounced “no”)細(thin; pronounced “hoso”) and胞(cell; pronounced “bao”). The grammar in the context changes the sounds of the sigils a bit.

In Sri Lankan Tamil (South Indian Islander) the word நரம்புக்கலம் (narampukkalam) translates as “nerve cell book plate,”and their word for “people” is மக்கள் (makkal), and “ethnicity” is இனம் (iṉam). In this case, only 2 letters are repeated between words: க் (k) and ம் (m), and they’re not “characters” like in Chinese, wherein one symbol is also word: 单 = “one” (letters are only sounds, characters are sounds and also words). Yet again, the phonetic ties to these translations for a human body part are not ethnically self-centered or narcissistic, as we do see in English’s overt self-preferencing system imposed on this whole-species appendage.

‍ ‍We assert the “white race” through English phonetics; right, rite, write, witness, whiteness, while, why, whilst, wired- along with fairness (fair skin, fairgrounds, fairness). We also say English’s phonetic prefixation as the suffix, or the ending of many of it's words: spelling/spellENG, thinking/thinkENG etc. When the prefix is also used for the words “engine and engage (ENG-age).” This language was crafted and imposed with violence; it's not an indigenous European language, as we colonized ourselves (burned our own pagan witches first) and then went on to colonize others, as English is still an evolving language (so we can change it's narc-bias over time with the initiative to change language curriculums).

Therapist/the-rapist without space vs the Ethical English Form (EEF) proposal: Theta-Pi (solo and plural)

‍ ‍To reapply ourselves with allyship and the indigenous practices we are rooted from; to die-out narcissistic patterns, is a cognitive and spiritual commitment. To interlace that with the latest evidence of crises intervention (not crisis construction/predictive assertion), to allow safe, natural futurism, rather than faux freedom control, is a more ethical way to connect and guide our instincts into intuition, for healthy species generation. The following paragraph refers to the Indigenous people of what hasn’t always been called “America,” but Aztlán. To study their ways with the intent of repair, rather than gaslighting genocide and their experiences, we can aid in the reconciliation of a “United States” that is created by the people first at home to it, and their allies, rather than to commonly unify to English only, colonial standards, and instead value our entire species standards, via the healthiest cognitive routes, as leaders learning within a world of learning leaders. Relinquish the control of ideas in minds/mines, that have no reason other than domination, despite holistic truth- which has been America’s standard for far too long.‍ ‍

For the Lakota, what is known as the Aries constellation, in line with a few other stars, is also known as the Dried Willow constellation. The Lakota people have around 7 different words relating to “Willow” because it is such a sacred tree; they use it for medicine, bows & arrows, and mix the inside powder of the bark with smoking tobacco. There’s also a Lakota Animal constellation of various star lines, that includes the Taurus constellation. The constellation called Great Circle-Black Hills, consists of the Greco-Roman named stars, Pleiades, Rigel, Sirius, Procyon, Castor-Pollux, and Capella- which have Lakota names too. 8 out of the 12 stars of the Gemini constellation make the Mahto Tipila(Bear’s Lodge) constellation, or disrespectfully/colonially re-named, the “Devil’s Tower”(which tribes say is very hurtful, because it’s supposed to relate to a sacred place on Earth/Makȟówaŋča). Many people believe that Mahto Tipila was once a giant tree and is now an ancient tree-stump.

“The Wyoming State Parks Department were conducting photographic seismic readings below the tower, when they discovered an incredibly large, petrified root system below the tower." It does not explicitly make the claim that the popular, mystic rock structure was a giant tree at one point; it leaves it up to readers to make the extrapolation.”(USA Today Fact Check)

For the Mayans, there are several calendars used for their tracking systems. The planet Venus, or in Mayan, “Chak ek,” is especially important for indicating lucid dreaming cycles in connection to the timing of warfare; when to merge the seemingly opposing orders. Venus is also known as a planet of partnership, beauty, values, balance, aesthetic, money making or trade, and art. It orbits in the fractal-geometric equivalent of the “Golden Mean,” “Pentacle” symbol, and a rose design, hence why it tends to represent trade, balance, beauty and love. However, this gets conflated with the overproduction of aesthetic principles, such as why people want to war (money/*aesthetic control).

*Notice “æ” is a Latin symbol that informs the dictionary.com definitions of “aesthetic” as “relating to the philosophy concerned with notions such as the beautiful and the ugly, the study of the mind and emotions in relation to the sense of beauty, and having a sense characterized by a love of beauty.” The words “orientation” and “oriental” are also an ethnic language art design bias of English/Latin, especially in attraction to the non-oriental, such as Africans, Rohingya, Arabian, or the Native American. The dictionary.com definitions of “orientation”are “an introduction, to guide one in adjusting to new surroundings, employment, activity, or the ability to locate oneself in one's environment with reference to time, place, and people, and the ascertainment of one's true position, as in a novel situation, with respect to attitudes, judgments, etc.”

Many Greco-Roman astrologers refer to Venus as a “money indicator,” but due to massive economic inequality, that can be a classist perspective, especially when looking to Pluto, Jupiter, and Saturn as energies that control how the Venus realm allocates in the long term, or on a larger scale. Other cultural star gravities allocate the energy differently, due to the average faith/reconciliation of those who discuss their existence and vibrational form in relation to the environment’s natural surroundings, and how they depend on the sky. The Mayans simultaneously use their Venus-based Tzolkin Calendar (260 days- a bit more than the 24 hour Chak ek cycle), together with their Haab Sun Calendar (360 days- a bit less than the 24 hour Sun cycle ("kin" in Yucatec Maya &"k'ajol" in K'iche' Maya), to track correlation plans for a balanced society.

There are different versions of Mayan astrology that people can refer to, just as there are different versions of astrology in other cultures. Jose Argüelles was known to have re-created ancient Mayan astrology into a new model, and that information can be found at The Foundation for The Law of Time. Various Indigenous Mayans believe that Argüelles appropriated their cultural into some kind of neoliberal pyramid scheme that people buy information from. Personally, I don’t think Argüelles meant to appropriate Mayan traditions with his research specifically with the intention to harm or only make a buck- but he did reorganize them, and the people who inherited it after his death are profiting from it- and I don’t find that justified to the actual Mayan people in full (whom deserve resource respect).

In my journey, I’ve found my sign from Argüelles’s Starroot calculator and its description from Astro-Dream-Advisor, to have aided my context of self- but it truly does ignore the reality of appropriation and who is making the most out of the organization. Part of the toxicity in society, is the massive amount of cognitive dissonance from being forced into certain regimes that provide an over-consumptive paralyzation of “choice,” due to the overwhelming privleges some have, that others work so hard to achieve or die for.‍ ‍Similar to Argüelles, there are others that have studied “traditional” Mayan astrology, such as Vajra Fatih Keçelioglu, born and raised in Turkey, who studied with some of the Mayan people, and runs the website MyMayanSign.com and YouTube channel, where descriptions are explained and monetized by Fatih, although he does donate some of the proceeds to a Mayan nonprofit (still appropriation).

Kenneth Johnson, from California, was initiated as a Mayan “aj q’ij ~ daykeeper” in November of 2017 and explains the Mayan signs and teachings he learned on his website, Jaguar Wisdom. Not all nations of the Mayan people would agree with such efforts, since non-Mayan people are profiting from the information they’ve learned from Mayans with their site readings and teachings (including from me, since I have paid for a reading by them in the past, embarrassingly). Fatih donates to the Meso Foundation, and Kenneth Johnson donates to Mayan communities as well, since he was initiated by them. I refuse to go to such lengths again before I seek to change the way my toxic privilege affects the indigenous world view. I’d rather be a listener of indigenous wisdom and cognize how it fits into to what my ancestry has imparted upon me over time, so I can inspire to change the design of future legacies.

This site, sacredroad.org, is also called Saq’be (“the sacred road”), an Organization for Mayan and Indigenous Spiritual Studies, and has been the closest Mayan Astrology source I’ve found in English and Spanish that is visibly the most connected to the actual Mayan peoples in its presentation, being an actual non-profit meant to support them- so I donated there too after I sought to find a more indigenous source (as I should’ve done first). Their site also categorizes me as the Knife sign (Tijax/Etz’nab), which made sense to me- being that I see how life has been cut off from the world, how I’ve been cut off, how I’ve cut out others, and how to cut out toxic behaviors (I used to cut myself, and I used to use a knife to scrape my pipe- but then I cut out smoking from my life too). It relates to the sword, the pen, the needle of a tattoo gun or a vaccination- and the actI.V.ism injections of true direct action that I must be collectively a part of.

There are various other sites that would tell you your Mayan astrology sign with explanation, but a solidarity-traded reading from a Mayan tribal member, or actually studying with the Mayan people, is the best way. However, they are forced to fight the colonial lumberjacks destroying their rainforest, murdering, raping, and trafficking their people- so learning with them is also about learning what toxic-privilege systems have put them through and still put them through today. From now on, I will only donate/purchase from the Mayan indigenous sources, instead of the appropriated sources; Ho’oponopono.

I’d use the “free” resources out of curiosity, but only with the discernment between appropriation and reparation. To take the information for yourself without consideration or support to the actual Mayan community in spirit or materially, is inevitably appropriation- and if you plan to use that information to help bring liberation to the actual Mayan people, then be sure to make that a part of your way of life; to be ethical in your acknowledgement. Identifying as a Tijax/Etz’nab and the White Rhythmic Dog has helped me both heal and realize my karma (even when it hurt), because I allowed my subconscious to put full faith in those descriptions of me, as a placebo effect. The humiliation of having found other cultural ways of relation to be more fulfilling than the legacy passed down by more recent ancestors, is used as a cognitive motivation to transform my “white” culture through creative social change.

I’ve had memorable dreams and spiritual life events line up with the days of my personal Tzolkin calendar. All on the same day, I watched an anime called Children Who Chase Lost Voices- (which features a journey to find a Japanese version of Quetzalcoatl), kicked out an abusive alcoholic roommate, and found a wandering Husky dog named Sunka (Shoon-Ka) which translates to “Dog” in Lakota (who coincidentally belonged to somebody I know and look up to). It wasn’t till later on that day, after all that had happened, that I found out it was my Tzolkin birthday.

‍ ‍Another time, I had a very memorable dream that also taught me a lesson about life and death, strategy and acceptance, as two giant figures made out of a light pink color came out of two obelisk, pinkish-grey granite stones, and taught me symbolic ideas- then I looked out the window in my dream and noticed a Deer outside. After I had woken up and checked the calendar, I saw it was the time of the Mayan Deer Trecana. That dream sadly ended as a nightmare showing me my karmic fears- but it gave me a warning about somebody close to me; sometimes anger is a genetic chronic disease, despite race/sex -and because of it.

‍ ‍I was told that we are all “indigenous” to Earth, while at an Indigenous-led protest (No DAPL), but some of us create reality away from Earth due to fear and desire to rule over the future (the sphere ~ see-fear?). Studying an indigenous worldview has helped me find myself as a person, because it led me to clarify my root causes, and especially my karmic pain, being part of a newer epidermal form that made itself toxic-privilege, compared to Moore-indigenous skin tones.

As a day sign of the Obsidian point or Knife, which is ironically a deep black color (like the pupil of an eye), in contrast to being in the “White” Dog direction (polarity), from my Arguelles Mayan sign, I’ve used the tone of “Rhythmic” to further solidify being a spoken-word artist, singer and dancer. I laugh at the spelling of “Dog” backwards and being named after a goddess at birth (Athena), and further I ponder how different the meaning of “White” is when comparing the indigenous version (I’ll never experience directly), to the toxic colonial script of “white” representing the privilege of toxic colonial society, Being a “white persin” via toxic standards of “race.” While I support the human race, the hierarchal use of the epidermal-ethnic “races” destroyed our species kinship and has thus sparked the inflammation of a collective auto-immune disease.

Indigenous astrology has helped me with my mental health issues as I learn to understand notions of “truth” more completely. Indigenous cultures see mental health as a shamanic issue, aiding people with ceremonial plant medicines, enchantments and ritual instructions, as well as a collective perspective of their place in community; a practice of intervention- compared to colonial society’s “give em’ a pill and some therapy” (therapist~the-rapist; spelled without a space), type chronic industrial complex that does not intervene on disease root causes, and does not dive deep enough into the roots of a person’s soul on Earth. The caduceus was stolen and turned into a dollar sign ($), unless we use our actions to turn collected wealth back into collective health.

Astrology can have a healing effect or a harmful effect- and I’ve experienced both. Faith is an art of mastering your own sense of power, self-consciousness, and respecting that of others, while learning from past and present experiences. Let’s seek to understand and heal what was once or still is Indigenous within and around us, to see the point of learning about Indigenous land acknowledgement and astrology, and other cultural star stories. Dedicating yourself to root cause includes the authority of Indigenous people, through harm-reduction legacy work and by revealing how recent ancestors’ designs of toxic colonialism has harmed us and many other generations, and that it needs to be put to rest, reformed, resigned, and reunited with an indigenous world view and allyship practices.

The truth proves that the Indigenous “plight” has become a hard path because of toxic colonialism and (mostly white and male) supremacies (not the same as leadership) poisoning the land. The Earth has been dying from pollution, extinction, disease, and poverty, because of the illnesses of greed, narcissism, and the chronic dissatisfaction that comes from the ignorance those mental/social illnesses breed. That is why I also find that trust for Indigenous Economics, Language, Governance and Star Knowledge systems, will inspire actions more aligned with environmental ethics, and help us heal the pain caused by intergenerational systems of slavery, trafficking and unhealthy habits- because it helps us recognize the root-causes of issues and their pathology, by resurrecting “ruins” safely, researching and practicing sustainability, clarifying the sanity of our species relations, and communicating language more ethically.

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