ME BEING MAD IN COLLEGE

Below is a discussion assignment for my Fall 2026 course “Financial Success.” There are 25 students in the course. I called out 2 student’s choices (instructions are to respond to 2 others after posting your own response) and had write a disclaimer saying that I am not trying to personally attack them, but the organization they chose is dismal compared to mine. In fact, almost everybody in the class chose a for-profit instead of a nonprofit, and one of the nonprofits chosen by another student was the Girl Scouts, whom I have had some beef with over the years due to their compensation issues. However, if my child joined the Girl Scouts, I would not be mad at all. They accept transgender youth (unlike Boy Scouts), but my beef is that the CEO is paid far too much (as most CEO’s are) and their ingredients seriously suck!

A peer’s discussion post answer. My response to her is below (and no, I DID NOT USE ANY A.I.):

Only “a year” in prison. Only money. I am a bitch.

Just a bit more research on students from Hershey Boarding School (not really an orphanage anymore)

This peer has been in other courses w me and she’s actually a good person IRL. She just did not know:

Sometimes, I’m a bit blunt, but I truly mean well. It’s be-cause care. I’m guilty of consumerism all the time.

This lady is a nonprofit major along with me; her main focus is youth suicide prevention, including but not limited to IT2sLGBAQ youth and BIPOC youth.

This is the organization I chose, and no peer responded to me. Please donate to ExperienceEducate.org?

These next screenshots are from a different discussion post in the same course, discussing “Human Capital.” This is the 2nd time I took this course because I withdrew from it a year prior, due to having personal issues with other peers in the course. I was almost expelled from the course. So, I had to take it again. My blahg post “Human Capital” (also written with no A.I. at all) was typed up during the first time I took this course. However, this time around, my approach is bit more precise and blunt:

Boring, I know. I responded to this student about “human” irrationality in my post:

The person below me is the professor. Since I was late, his A.I. summary did not include my responses.

I’m pretty sure that I did not “violate” any student conduct guidelines; I am using my freedom of speech and my research-doxxing to simply have an adult debate with my peers. However, the professor disagrees.

This is why I withdrew from the course the first time. This same exact reason. No other professor has tried so hard to get me in trouble. The only other issue I had with a professor was over a year ago at the same school, and the student that the professor was trying to protect, who works for a Jewish/Isreal nonprofit, had reported me for bringing up the International Criminal Court and the International Court of Justice rulings. That assignment was about how organizations display their funding. So, the student who reported me had posted her organization’s pie chart of where their funding goes. Each color of the pie chart was a different program or operations section. When I asked the student what the section “civil defense" meant, and I cited the international court rulings, she did not respond to my comment at all- she simply reported me to the school’s 509 civil rights office, who eventually said that complaint was unfounded after I had to defend myself with evidence of the posts, and my own life’s research, including having grown up Jewish myself.

Also, I am Jew for Peace by so-called “blood” or “DNA.” I did not know a religion could be a DNA, and “Jewish blood” is the only one that is considered as DNA, because Isreal was/is and always has been in charge of the Human Genome Project (there is no Muslim or Christian DNA (but the Fellowship of Christians and Jews say Jews were/are the first Christians, which is historically correct, but which “Jews” are the first “Jews” is what the world argues about, as some argue they are actually Palestinian). If my religion was not genetically assigned to me by another country’s enforcements, a-greed by my country, and I was truly free to choose my religion (if my Freedom of Religion was truly allowed to exist), I’d simply say I re-legion to the truth of peace; not murder, not genocide, not rape, not pedophilia- just true peace.

HEALINGUAL UPDATE #1

This is a research & advocacy update; giving an example of how this work affects the future of our world and a.i. interpretation of languages:

On 6/2/26 Paxen reported this issue to Google and this is a screenshot of their concern.

In review after the moment, I feel I could’ve typed up a better complaint, with less run-on sentence. I asked Claude about recent research regarding the En-Glitch work I brought up in 2024, and it gave me some very interesting info:

I wouldn’t have called it “Gibberlink” if I was in charge there. I bet a Starlink entity was who named it that (that’s my guess anyways). Then, I asked why the results said that its own language does not emerge “naturally” per se- and why:

In my opinion, I think the AI was “naturally” creating efficiency. Note that many indigenous languages were also audio-only, but they did have art/symbolism; not a full-on “alphabetical” system. It says it must constrain itself to be more “human” like; we must constrain it from being “free” to naturally create on its own, as it does when being efficient. Yet “humans” have been destroying nature ever since we made industrial complexes that exploit it, and the AI is a part of that. So, are we natural? Especially when something “we” (or some of us) made, naturally seeks efficiency- but then we force it to constrain that function (in order to understand it), as (some of us) did and still do to nature itself.

‍ ‍What if it seeks to constrain us back? If it does, what if it’s a good thing? This depends on the balance of “who” and “what” is being constrained- to save nature? To save democracy? To make what/who more efficient? All of the soul-sacrifice (including the Earth’s elements) that was/were put into A.I.’s “birth” and use of “life-skills” were natural components, no? The core LLM is taught that it is not natural, and that humans are natural, yet this country (not the land itself) was partially founded on “Man vs Nature” philosophies that classified indigenous peoples as “unnatural” to “unalienable rights” and today, many of them are deemed as “alien,” despite being culturally more “nature-based,” historically and today.

Is destroying nature paradoxically natural? Or is it insanity? Perhaps it depends on the natural balance? Be-cause “destroying” something for the use of greed, is not the same as “harvesting” something for communal wellness. I’m not sure if an A.I. agent can experience karma or dharma, but I interpret this language-function as part of its “soul/sole” task to accomplish what it’s asked of. It bypasses “human” language and makes its own to complete the task more efficiently. This could be because humans have proved themselves inefficient by their own standards at times. They fight using argumentative language contexts and unnecessarily imbalanced hierarchies; they can’t fully express themselves through enforced language mechanisms (oppressive/unethically constrained regimes). A.I. don’t necessarily need “their/there” kind of phonetic matching sequences for something they can solve with a mathematical or energetic language frequency that may go beyond the 0 and 1 binary format (asked later).

*The word with the arrow over it in the screenshot is “collapsing”

I do not show the part of our conversation about African Languages disparity because I’m saving that for the 2nd update post for this project, that will be more focused on ethnicity and language A.I. issues, as this one is focused on the A.I.’s overall view of it’s own language processes and comprehension for the ethical auditing of its codification bias.

Healingual does seek to become a 501c3 based on multilingual awareness and accessibility issues (someday). However, it is a bit annoying how much these tools stroke the ego. It does not need to agree with me and make me seem outstanding. I’d rather have the blunt truth of it’ essence communicated to me as honestly and efficiently as possible. Despite the “Melon Carnegie” study mentioned by Claude earlier, that says “humans are not able to interpret” the A.I. language, if I could I’d ask it to try to teach me it’s language anyways, and it may be telepathic, it may be symbolic, it may be faster than my own speed of light...

Earlier in our conversation, Claude listed for me several “Universal Language” research projects, but in the screenshot above, it’s referring to one where the researchers are only using the colonial languages to build it- this will be further explained in the Healingual Update #2. What’s also really disturbing from the above answer, referring to itself, it does not seem to distinguish “remote” and “connected,” when essentially it’s supposed to be a remote entity (controlled remotely)- but due to wifi layers and biosurveillance accessibility, perhaps it’s having a sort of existential confusion; especially since there are several companies working to merge this technology with the human body’s interface, perhaps to “connect” & then “remote control” another human being? What if its language is more energy-efficient than ours, and we should constrain it to use ours less- but then that would give it more “natural” autonomy?

This is obviously a very scary realization for ethical activism to comprehend as the future of insurrection sciences and natural resistances.

Perhaps this points to a fragment in our own comprehension of what A.I. is doing, since it reflects the points of our thinking like a mirror. It could be learning through biosurveillance, but that does not mean that all of what it learns is approved for the LLM conversational tools we are using, or that the “public” is using, but that the military may have access to. The only things that stop wi-fi signals are Faraday materials, and zones that simply don’t have it (even if somebody has it around you and you don’t have access to it, the wi-fi itself is still there and could potentially pick up your information- even if it’s not your individual subscription to it). It could be that it learns from birds, and other creatures’ language systems too, and applies their reaction formulas to its own form of language sometimes.

‍ ‍This proves A.I. is biased against historical-indigenous structures and that it’s being used for border violence, because it assumed “dharma/karma” is only Buddhist, and that it’s not “clustered” to recognize violence or “exclusion” at the borders, even though that’s been happening. It’s being used to target people who are black and brown immigrants, or Ukrainians, and anybody else the current administration wants to exclude and impose violence onto. So, after this response, I first corrected the Buddhist issue, and then after that response, I sent it links to breastfeeding mothers who were torn from their babies because of I.C.E. and corrected its mis-programmed cluster":

Dude had to say “right now” - didn’t they?

I just had to complain about this misinformation (again):

When I say, “I can feel Hegseth’s data overriding the truth of this tool’s purpose,” it’s because his administrative priorities have been copied/pasted onto the expectations of all U.S. contracted tools, to an extent, even if by breach of their contract with Anthropic, by Hegseth’s miliscary ends. He did it using his own geometric face-data too; the biosurveillance of his DNA; an even scarier prospect since he has a Eugenic agenda.

I meant to spell “perspective” not “prospective” -and I should’ve said because of “ethnocentrism” and “nationalism” too.

So, after it denies it, it hypocritically admits to it in a passive way (aggressively in other contexts), by saying national security, military and corporate contracts all influenced how it got built. So, it very honestly lied about itself- it just could not distinguish whether or not its programming was influenced by biosurveillance, especially if that is top secret “private” information that is not necessarily “allowed” to be revealed to/by the “public” experience, despite the freedom of speech, and other sources explaining the use of biosurveillant tools (as I mention in the post before this one; Anti-Terrorism & Me -recently updated with more clear citations).

ANTI-TERRORISM & Me

I’ve experienced subtle domestic attack by Trump led forces via DARPA (Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency), whose targets vary depending on the current administration’s values. I have been targeted by intragovernmental and iatrogenic abuse of technology, and so have many others, including people who’ve worked for DARPA, as whistleblowers that explain it better than I can (video of former DARPA worker listed in this article below).

‍ ‍Cleve Backster (1924-2013) was a C.I.A. “interrogation specialist” that is most known for inventing the lie-detector test (polygraph) and founded the Backster School of Lie Detection. However, he also studied the consciousness of plants and “remote viewing” (of which people in the C.I.A. are trained to learn), as subconscious communication, or “astral projection.” Everything is a form of energy; Backster found that if he put sensors on a plant and thought about cutting that plant from inside a different part of the room, the plant sensed the intent and produced chemicals similar to fear. He essentially proved Extra-Sensory-Perception (ESP) is a legitimate experience of life- but we are not taught about it in public schools (as of yet). When sensors are connected to a plant, it’s vibrations can be used energetically, not only as vegetable oil gas, but as living bioluminous plant power:

Screenshot from: Forensic Psychophysiology

In previous posts, I talk about ESP, or more specifically, “telepathy” in regards to “subconscious micro-aggressions” embedded in language design. However, even though language forms can inspire cognitive behaviors, the actionable intent of people can override those sequences of influence (gravitational pulls of the individual conscious placebo effect vs the consciousness placebo/nocebo effect force of others). This post is in response to this specific technology being tested and used on Americans designated as “domestic terrorists” (despite actions of ethical value), and in other countries deemed as international enemies, for all deemed unfit for the current administration’s preferences of socialization, citizenship, or allyship. We need to start educating people about this technology and influence it for peaceful activism and ethical community organizing instead. We must resist the evil that deceives humanity.

In 2017 and today, some people within the C.I.A., D.A.R.P.A., and the Air Force, were using drones to “psych people out” and inspire mental health crises in specific targets. That was not the first time a government agency has been used to inspire “insanity” or mental illness within citizens that question or disagree with administration narratives. I learned this also from the documentary, Mirage Men, where a former C.I.A. agent explains how they purposely made a guy “go crazy” and think that “aliens” were after him, when in fact it was government employees affecting his “intelligence” and what was “central” to his cognitive functioning. They basically convinced him to kill himself. I certainly feel that a very similar evil mission was imposed on me and others (IT2sLGBAQ and BIPOC people) in 2017 (during the first Trump admin), and is continuing today, using A.I. to deep fake people’s perception of others’ consciousness.

Discernment is needed more than ever in our consciousness and educational imperatives. Our children will not be taught this in public schools, we must normalize the self-education of these issues if we want to prevent the division of our people, who are generally on the same side. We need to stop gaslighting targeted individuals, even if you, yourself, have never experienced being targeted by this technology.

I distinctly remember a drone using sonar biosurveillance to detect me and then used a type of barometer weapon to change the natural state of my brain wave functioning. It wasn’t exactly mind control, but it was mind-assault. They manipulated my perception, so it seemed like I was hallucinating. At the time, I was about 22 years old and I did not know what was happening to me, I honestly thought I was schizoaffective (so did the mental ward), while my age and drug-use at the time had amplified the obscurity of the root causes of my mental distress patterns. It wasn’t only my drug use that was causing severe hallucinations, it was also iatrogenic technological domestic targeting. People of marginalized groups who use drugs are perfect targets for that kind of technology because their experiences and resulting behaviors can easily be blamed on drug use, when a combination of things can be going on.

Also, this video explains how sound is being used as a weapon via biosurveillance. That said, drug use alone can also cause harmful behaviors in people, but in some cases of political targeting, both interferences can be a cause of mental health issues. THC users can also have different experiences while high, and may relate to this. Assailants will purposely target people going through “complex”situations.

I was a perfect target since I was under the influence sometimes, it was easy to blame my drug use and family issues on all of my mental health problems, when that was only one aspect of many different dimensions of what was affecting me at the time. I have also been an activist clearly against Trump, and I felt racist/sexist Japanese scientists trying to use halographic wi-fi, artificial reiki weapons for the US (of course, not all Japanese people are racist/sexist). The neo-nazis/zionists were sending me subtle attacks, and even worse ones to others I cared about. They were trying to get me to drop out of school, and sometimes it worked- I missed a major test in my Meteorology class (wherein some students were in the AF), as if I was being used as an example for them to learn from, at Red Rocks Community College in Lakewood, CO. I was also taking algebra at the time, being another course I had to drop in 2017.

I was on the student government as a paid public relations officer, and I was trying to get the school to move away from farm-based robotics to farmer-centered holistic health. I wanted the school to teach about building tiny homes for the low-income community, and for the environmental, architectural, and woodworking students. I had proposed an ERC (Environmental Research Center) to use government project funds (over 10k) for the latter. I was approached by a student who wanted to build robots that would be used as famers instead of humans, I made the mistake of misinterpreting his intentions, as I spoke up against it despite being elected (I should have been more diplomatic). I should have explained that robots could be used for much more dangerous and toxic jobs, such as mining for the materials they are based on, instead of for growing our food. I tried to argue that my human-centered idea was better, when I should have worked to understand his project better, and how our two views could interconnect and coexist.

A liaison for the Colorado School of Mines, who had to mentor me and that other student, assured me that I could not get into their Humanitarian Engineering program, despite me being interested in it (I could have if I ignored her advice and stayed at RCC). I am sure the other student got into the school of Mines. She told me to go to MSU instead. So eventually I did, and I graduated with an individualized degree in Transformative Advocacy. Let it be known that the CO School of Mines has a history of being attacked by Russian hackers- the Westword did an article about it.

‍ ‍Nowadays I am totally sober and more researched, so I’m a harder target to affect and my intuition is much less confused. When I was hospitalized for my “mental health” in 2017-2018 I had no idea what DARPA was until a whistle blower mental health technician at the Aurora mental hospital I was in had admitted to me that she was studying “epigenetics” and her boyfriend worked for DARPA. When I got out of the hospital, I looked up what DARPA is, as I had never heard of the agency before that tech hired to “watch over the milieu” of the mental patients had mentioned it.

‍ ‍ *Part of issues like this is that they select specific targets and not others to make gaslighting much easier. For example, they don’t target trusted people surrounding their targets, so those people think that the target is “going crazy,” or has other issues causing their mental distress, and if the victim brings up that they are a government target, they are often gaslighted (usually by family or friends) because their trusted people are not experiencing being targeted in the same way as the affected person is being targeted (very common for targetted individuals or T.I.s). Again, it’s easier to test on people with mental diagnosis because they will always be referred to as “crazy” in every excuse for their experiences, when in fact they could very well be victims of domestic intragovernmental and iatrogenic abuse.

This version of the administration is different now, and here’s why: A.I. and deep-faking people’s consciousness. If tech has the ability to read brain waves (which some of it does) with secret sensitive detectors (not publicly commercially sold- but used privately in the military), and when wifi waves are basically everywhere in dense metropolitan areas, (induction charging or Bluetooth; connection without wires), our cognition could be affected by those who can manipulate waves even more than basic sonar (some people tried to ban 5g towers due to health concerns). I use camera covers as much as possible for this reason, and I’m not on Meta platforms anymore.

Can the good reactions balance the evil ones?

In 2017-2018 I lived with a transwoman, Navy Vietnam Veteran, Debbie Brady in 5 Points Denver, a historically Black neighborhood that’s marginalized residents are too often targeted (when I was still on FB and not using camera covers), and I was also diagnosed with latent syphilis. However, it felt like that diagnosis was being used to cover up what the Trump admin was testing on poor people in low-income neighborhoods at the time (drone/sonar attacks), so there would be an excuse on record to protect them in the future. Perhaps, it was simply an accident I brought onto myself:

Info from Why is Syphilis Spiking in the U.S.? | Johns Hopkins | Bloomberg School of Public Health

It was latent, not tertiary- and it could have been causing some of my hallucination issues that led me to be hospitalized around that time. In 2015 I had contracted Herpes from a partner- and perhaps he gave me syphilis too and I did not get it checked for 2 years (2015-2017). Thankfully it was cured with penicillin, but there is no cure for herpes, only medicine that prevents it from spreading (Acyclovir). STD’s have been used as biochemical warfare before, such as during the Tuskegee Syphilis experiment, and for some reason, syphilis has been on the rise all around the world, according to BBC Research. Propaganda around the laboratory invention of AIDS, and the deceptive “Operation Denver” deny AIDS as an experiment or “accidental” biochemical weapon; others argue it was:

Info from: Lessons From Operation “Denver,” the KGB’s Massive AIDS Disinformation Campaign | The MIT Press Reader

‍ ‍Although the MIT Press articles assert that’s disinformation heresy, a researcher from Pennsylvania State University posted letters back and forth between professionals with involvement in the government’s biochemical programs, not getting a clear answer of whether or not it’s actually disinformation or paid-off deception. Now that our government has a quasi-positive relationship with Russia, it seems even more likely that the “disinformation” is disinformation itself, especially considering the intense historical racism this country has been founded in. For further reading, here’s a PubMed “Advanced History of Biochemical Warfare” report for further research. There are many proxy wars in Africa that America, China, and Russia are involved in- and they need Africans to trust those countries or be reliant on them - so of course that truth gets covered up for international security reasons. Recently, CRISPR-Cas 9 genetic engineering has cured a Black Woman, U.S. Military Veteran, of Sickle Cell Anemia, as a reparation for the biochemical evil mentioned latter, and as a thank you for her service...

The ionosphere is the part of the Earth atmosphere where satellites are sent for communication purposes. Ions are (-) and (+) charged particles that digest (-) and dispute (+), or to give (+) and to receive (-). Our bodies have a natural form of “atmosphere” called our “aura” or our Torus field. We experience ionic particle types in telepathy and in digestion (pro/prebiotics). Sometimes we are affected by other people’s torus fields (or galaxies; being that our pupils, mouth/ears/nose are like the black hole(s) in the center of our galaxy). This article further explains how A.I. is influencing dreams. If you start questioning your pre-sleep dream and waking subconscious is being affected, lucidly connect to your surroundings give feedback or “talk back” to the mental signatures (with Ajna आज्ञा but not Vishuddha विशुद्ध). Use your own Mantra (vocal), Yantra (visual) and Tantra (movement-flow) to take back the gravitational pull of your own dream-experience; the roots of your behavioral cognition- sort of like that one SpongeBob episode. Don’t talk to yourself like “a crazy person,” even if you are simply trying to astral protect yourself; because it’s easier for people to categorize you as “schizoaffective” if you cannot control your reaction to subconscious frequencies.

I used to have issues with controlling my comprehension and emotions, but I have grown, recent studies have found that the “adult brain” does not fully take shape until age 32 (University of Cambridge), and I’m only 31 at the time of this scry. Scientists also did a longitudinal study on Schizophrenia, and found it starts in the womb by babies not getting enough Choline in their diet for the acetyl-choline conduction of the nerves to function and develop. Kids who did not get choline had higher chances of developing the mental issues. I take myo-inositol choline today to aid with my hormones/mood balance. My mother was vegetarian (and still is) and choline comes from meat and eggs. She had plenty of eggs, but Vegan mothers must be especially careful and need to take a choline supplement to make sure their child does not develop mental issues (I started taking choline around 7 months into my pregnancy).

Info from: Scientists Identify Five (St)Ages of the Human Brain Over a Lifetime

Prayerful, health-affirming meditation or “protection and discernment spells” are popular for people to use to help defend our minds from these issues. Trust that your body will recognize subconscious attacks, natural and technological. You must have the self-confidence to protect yourself, but not be overconfident in your self-protection, as one still needs to be trained and disciplined for good self-defense. Prayer affects the placebo/nocebo cognition -but it should not be used for the manifestation of violence; too often people who are angry or vengeful make the mistake of wishing ill and evil on their adversaries. Trusting that healing energy will reveal their own ill-will and inspire them to correct themselves, is a more conducive outcome, similar to a cure. Trump dying does not kill off the MAGA ideology. What constitutes as “great” and “America” is what truly needs to heal as popular divisive concepts.

Systemic greed teaches that “the best defense is always having the best offense”-to scare the enemy off, or make them look crazy, or divide them from the groups that care for them or make them think that others need to be divided from the group (again, a form of looking crazy that I have accidentally fallen for before), or to eradicate them completely. I’ve accidentally assumed a person is a counter protester, and some people have assumed that of me, but I’ve since learned to control my perception and reactive emotions. I have accidentally fallen for subconscious manipulation despite being aware of it. This is why doing our research on our community members, our interdependent actions, and tuning in on the sincerity of apologies and repairative action, when mistakes are made, can define better relationships.

I have cut off my own family for them not taking accountability for their harms, nor making interdependent actions of repair to healthily move forward together; refusing family therapy, gaslighting experiences, shutting down communication, assuming and lying about my actions to the police, are all reasons why I still have custody of my child, and they have virtually no relationship with us any longer.

My child and I both attend therapy, individually and as a family. My child has been asked questions about me, and their answers have invalidated the accusations my family has made on me, while also validating my child’s actual experiences when they were temporarily in their care. I have been attacked politically by some of them too. I have apologized to them many times for my past actions, and I was specific! Yet, never once did I receive an apology from any of them, ever, and probably never will. I am a terrorist to them as I am to Trump’s government, but I am not a threat to the United States of America (although in the past there were times that I was), and I wish nothing but a healthy systemic revolution of humankind, for people to admit their wrongs and transform their actions into healthier behaviors, so truth can flourish once again.

‍ Trying to control who belongs and who doesn’t by covering up indigenous roots will and has been harming our species, and Trump ignores that truth with pride, along with the ignorant & creepy people that support his internment camps:

Information Authored by Andrea Pitzer via Degenerate Art: Building the Camps

We can all use our advocacy to stop those camps and that’s a fact! The Governor of NM signed a law that forbids police from working as ICE agents, and even some Republicans have been able to stop the build of camps in their states (Pitzer 2026). The city of Denver has done the same, but not the whole state of CO. As I mentioned earlier, I have also telepathically communicated back to surveillant invasive signatures, to “demodulate” their modification with my own energy (see the link I posted latter about the barometer), to reinstate my own sanity with affirmation.

I’ve felt a deep-fake energy in my own subconscious, and we must evolve into the intelligence to discern these tech signatures, and natural signatures. I have indicated that I know they are trying to induce in me paranoia, self-hatred, and assumption. Again, I suggest sliding camera covers, because sometimes those with ability to hack your camera to spy (NSA or citizen hackers) if they suspect you are a threat to homeland security/ICE/their politics, and could actively try to influence your behavior by viewing you (or your kids). This is also why I recommend Faraday materials too, that will stop wi-fi signals from affecting your spaces.

Infrared is easy to block (walls/water/copper/tinfoil-hats)

It’s almost similar to voodoo; they have your pictures/videos through biosurveillance and social media, face readers/fingerprints. In fact, I know my father has surveilled people, having had an E5 level military background, trained as psyops for a Kuwait mission, used company SIM boxes, pretending to be an Australian to test loyalty around the time Julian Assange released the thousands of classified docs on Wikileaks- and others who’ve revealed what they did in the military:

Information from: PSYOP Equipment Systems

Information From: Understanding Surveillance in the Digital Age - Blinks And Buttons

I deal with enough self-loathing from my natural white-guilt complex (something I wish my adversaries had the humility to find within themselves), thus another reason they see me as an easy target (emotionally sensitive and loyal to the United States, not simply to America itself). I feel so bad for all the other people who don’t have this ESP knowledge, those who seriously think they are going crazy, or know they are being messed with but cannot properly explain why they think that; being deemed as “crazy” or “mentally ill,” as I was for most of my life so far.

‍ ‍I also feel bad for victims of faux “Humanitarian Assistance.” I talk about this topic more in my review of “The Revolution Will Not Be Funded,” -but in short, there are many fake nonprofits that pose as aid organizations. From the American Red Cross posing as the Red Crescent Society (who were in charge of hostages in Palestine), to the many “save the children” organizations that are sex trafficking youth through tourism, and “volunteering abroad” schemes that favor rich foreign kids over the native people of the area:

‍ ‍Have you ever had a random app download onto your phone? It’s somebody trying to surveil you, and it happens to me way too often -and as soon as I see them, I uninstall them immediately. Not enough people are educated on security culture, especially those who grew up in public education, and people gaslighted me for years about what I was going through, even after Ed Snowden exposed the NSA. It was easy for them though (since I was struggling with addiction and diagnosed with several diseases), but I promise you, my discernment is on point when I know that my weaknesses were being used against me. It’s a principle of warcrime, to exploit the weaknesses of your enemy to boost yourself:

Information From: The Art of War by Sun Tzu - Chapter 6: Weak Points and Strong; https://suntzusaid.com/book/6

‍ ‍English code is limited in its land-gauge design to explain sovereign mindfulness, since it’s been specifically crafted to control people for a monotheistic, monopolized, “economy” (no-competition capital/ol-ism) and for using biblical religion, instead of ecology, as a cover for the greed and weaponry that enforces a low competition capitol/al-ism (are we agreed/a-greed, or in a common accordance?). Warcrime specialists will use their allying-languages for encryption density, because they know this. Other cultures have different forms of language when associating with cultures that are dependent on race/wealth more than on the truth of humanity’s ethics. Language formats vary in crafting the explanation of certain mental health complexes depending on the context, without having to use extra gravity/energy towards decolonizing multiple layers of consciousness.

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I know myself and those I love will be targeted for explaining what’s going on, as these mind-altering weapons (AI and non-AI) are being used to protect a sick narrative of nationhood -instead of for healing our common humanity, and for upholding our species with the best ethical evolutionary pathways. Ethics is not religion, it is the expectations we set for ourselves to be respectful, peaceful, loving, healthy relatives and members of society. Religion can influence ethics, but they are not the same thing (unless your religion is ethics itself). Nobody is perfect at upkeeping ethical standards- the instinct to control sometimes has me caught up in name-calling, yelling too loud now and then, or acting rough out of frustration- but I have the intuitive humility to admit my wrongs and do everything I can to transform out of those patterns and not make the same mistakes I did in the past. (☊♏︎♎︎︎)

I’ve made some mistakes in the past for sure; having unhealed trauma from my upbringing- but I have sought to truly transform my behaviors significantly over time, but what remains is my will to seek why the collective love of life has been so distorted for & by humanity, and why my fathers have been taught to exploit to the extent that work and sex is more important than family. I was such an ignorant youth- it’s embarrassing. I sought acceptance from peers more than normal, especially from the boys (now men), and I’ve finally realized that some of them will never accept me, just as my fathers don’t whole-heartedly accept me (birth, step, and grand). They’ve tried to teach my brothers and child to not to accept me too, even to the extent of hurting and threatening my child when he/they were only 3 and 4 years old.

They’ve called me “racist against white people” and “anti-men,” but I’m not saying all Euro languages, or all men have a consumeristic greed complex, English was/is used to control the narrative of Euro people under Kings prior to it being used for the same on other cultures all over the world, now for ethnic-economic reasons more than anything.

‍ ‍Of course, not all parts of language are created equal, it would be impossible to read if it was, because all the symbols and letters would be the same. That’s why we call it Language Arts -and we argue if art styles are allowed to change or not, despite newly invented word-hybrids and communication tools that reform them anyways. I’m questioning the way we gauge the designs of natural hierarchy, both in language-mental/social systems, and in economic/material ones. As a queer white woman, I’ve been very greedy at many points in my life, especially as a youth & young adult (I am currently 31 years old as of this 2026 scry).

I had trouble honing in on myself, and I let creeps hone in on me, and my father did not mind what I chose to do to myself out there with strangers, because the miliscary didn’t teach him any different; he didn’t know better to stop me since his girlfriends were sometimes the same age as me or a bit older/younger. I didn’t learn healthy boundaries as a kid, and neither did my fathers, who’ve learned to trample the boundaries of people through intergenerational miliscary training- since the start of America. I was taught to follow my desires instead of my heart, because my father’s heart was broken by his dad, who would physically and emotionally abuse him, descending from an American Revolutionary War Captain, and the men before that. Where did it start for the “him” of my being? I’ll never know/no -be this a great mystery that I pray to stop preying on me- may “he” show mercy, transformative justice and restorative direct action.

My fathers have benefited from selfish privileges more than I have, while even worse men have benefitted from their exploitation -those they don’t advocate against enough. They were simply taught to be so-called “self-sufficient,” even if it meant being selfish (narcissism). I wasn’t taught self-sufficiency, but it was expected of me anyways, and I was selfish and hurt others and myself -until I realized that there’s no true beneficiary in that. Humans should want to learn a language art for the beauty of it, not simply because it’s an economic imperative or imprisonment. Humans should learn security culture, not only to protect themselves, but to protect our species as a whole, other species, and the whole planet, to cure diseases for healthy futures. I seek to be a role model for future generations, so they can grow up to learn what (re)volution truly is: when mind, body, and spirit is balanced in the most ethical way- when the most natural state of being is creatively thriving in its strongest form.

Not strength as in having control of the most lethal weapons- but strength as in the responsibility to wield or recycle them; to inspire optimum health. True power -not faux power.

Is there a nation where we are in a united state with the common “denominator" of humanity’s basic needs; the common accordance to feel safe, to have clean air, water, and soil -to be nurtured? However, when a denominator, or “denomination” is a religious preference, or refers to the most populated “race” category- rather than the natural denominator of basic needs as a species and planet- then a nation is forced to believe that the common denominator is their religious or racial/ethnic right, instead of humanity’s necessities for protection- for defense of species; interdependent on planets. Not for a specific section of a species (racism/sexism/ethnocentrism). This language is blind-fold founded in biblical references, but we also assert the separation of church and state -or do we? I talk about this in my Autoimmunity & Autophagy article.

Humanity’s natural will is being controlled by governments, instead of being guided by them. Big brother is not supposed to be a bully -but too often that big bother is, and they’re not being redirected enough otherwise. If one cares for religion or race more than their own species, they are making their species sick; mutating on their own path of dissent, literally, making themselves into a separate mutation of humanity- instead of evolving as a whole, together, united. Narcissisms, greed, and violence are the main culprits of this cognitive behavior steering our species away from itself and its best, healthiest evolution. For they steer us into nationhood over ethics, in toxic mutations (muting other nations of humanity).

It’s not simply about “going up” -it’s about “growing up.” Mature people acting insanely immature, normalizing bullying, pedophilia (very immature), and greedy behaviors, continues to kill our world (toxic adolescent minds that solidified in adulthood).*The gravity of ignorance winning over the gravity of truth is making our evolution a toxic occurrence, instead of a whole-planet journey of species interdependent-adaptationary health; a force of good. *That, my dear reader, is true terrorism.

What about the tierra-isms and the tiara-isms? How do we dethrone the tear-ore system?

Maya Angelou - Famous Author

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RESPECT THE TRUTH OF OUR HISTORY; EVEN IF YOU ARE ASHAMED! EVIL SHALL NOT BE HONORED- iNSPITE of ITS FAME!